Juno what I wanna do?

I really want to go see Juno. I really absolutely love Michael Cera. His subtle humor is amazing and realistic--I love that he makes the everyday awkwardness of life into something so hilarious.

I really can't wait to see the movie. And then I'll have to go home, curl up, and watch Arrested Development, because that's what I do. I see Michael and then can't get enough of him.

Bored Excitement

So break is shaping up kind of the way I expected. I'm having a great time, but still wondering about Syracuse.
I love being able to see all my Hackettstown friends, going to the places that we used to go to last year--Applebees, Friendly's (not for food, more to just see who was working and hang out), and the Budd Lake Diner. Sadly, I do realize that all these places are FOOD related. I wish there were things to do in this town besides eat out. If we had a good dance club, good thrift stores, a bowling alley, or a non-sketchy arcade, then maybe this place wouldn't feel like such an obesity trap.
But I've found some things to occupy me. I'm constantly trying to clean out my room. Little by little I'm throwing out a LOT of stuff from my room. Papers from high school that I was once convinced that I may need again one day have found their way into the garbage. Clothes that I know I won't wear ever again are sitting in either one of two trash bags--trash or donation. I still need to go through my closet but then I feel like I'll really have moved on from the ghost of the old, high school me, creating more room for the me that I've been developing and loving for the past few months.
I've seen some friends that I haven't seen in a long time. Carbi and I have cruised around Hackettstown, going from Friendly's to her house, to QuickChek wondering what the hell there is to do in this place, waiting hopelessly for our boyfriends to get out of work so that we can goto the diner, watch a movie, or go bowling in a few towns over.
But I miss Syracuse. I miss wandering aimlessly into Ric's ever-open door to crash on his (now roommate occupied) free bed, and watch him play the video game of the moment. I miss knocking on Kelina's door casually suggesting we hop on the bus to actually get decent food with Lara on Main. And, yes, I'll admit that I even miss hearing Brian's loud-as-can-be rants, whether it be about the hopelessness of liberalism, or just about the newest video game that he hasn't beaten just yet. Even more astoundingly, I miss Maxx mumbling stories while I wonder if the kid will ever speak loud enough so I can hear him the first time so that I don't have to obnoxiously say, "What?!? I can't hear you! SPEAK UP please! I'm slightly deaf!" I miss making plans with Kasey to meet on Main Campus to talk about Syracuse and Hackettstown. Weird, right?
I guess that's the weirdest part. I mean having Kasey with me at Syracuse is like having a taste of home with me on campus. She's one of my best friends from high school and I can talk to her about stuff that's going on both at home and at school without constantly reminding her who Carbi, Katie, Hali, Ric, Lara, or Kelina is. She just knows. In many ways, I feel more comfortable having her in Syracuse and in Hackettstown. I'm glad I started out my break with her going to Rutgers.
It gave me a kind of bridge to break. I mean I didn't have to get SUBMERGED into Hackettstown life. We talked about life in both towns. And I was truly happy and ready to see Hali having that buffer zone. Don't get me wrong--I would have been ecstatic to see Hali with or without that buffer zone, but I feel like I would have been awkward around her or anyone else from Hackettstown. I guess I just have trouble adjusting.

So, I thought I'd just interject her and tell you that I'm truly sorry that this post makes absolutely no sense. It really is just random thoughts being typed out as I think them. I've found that my mind doesn't go on very logical tangents, and so my writing, unless focused, goes into weird non-logical tangents.
Anyway, this next week looks like it's going to shape up really well. I'm going to see some great people tonight. Tomorrow's is Emily's birthday and we're going out tonight to celebrate--which reminds me, I have to go shopping. I'm glad she's decided on the night before for her dinner celebration because tomorrow is also Gabe's and my anniversary and we're going out. I always feel as though I always have something with him coinciding with events with them and I feel bad that I don't get to hang out with them that often. Anyway tomorrow's the anniversary and we're trying to figure out what we want to do. We know we're going out to dinner. We want to go to Legal Seafood at the Short Hills Mall, but then he suggested Carmine's. We're not going to Carmine's. I looked at their menu last night (http://www.carminesnyc.com/carmines_44st.htm) and uh, no. We don't have that kind of money. Legal's is expensive...but they don't charge $11 for garlic bread. They don't even charge that for the appetizer of fried calamari!
Theeeennnn, the next day, I go to Philly with Gabe. We're going to his friend's house who's having a New Year's party! It took a little bit of convincing to get my parents to be okay with it but I'm going, and it's going to be a great night!!!

Anyway, I know I was kinda descriptive towards the top and very non-descriptive towards the end, but I'm tired now, and will end this entry here. There will probably be more later.

oh..if I didn't mention this before--I have wireless internet now! which is the only reason I can write this right now!!! Thanks Gabriel!!!!!!

Finals and Holidays

Ah, so Thanksgiving was a nice break from the hustle and bustle of college life. Sometimes you really forget what it's like to live at home. With parents. With rules. With a car. Without your friends right next door. Without wireless internet. Without a roommate. Without cafeteria food. With pets. With a landline telephone. With the need to go out on a Friday night to have a good time.
As you can see, I'm a little split about the whole college experience still. There are so many things that I truly love about it. For the first time in...EVER...I actually feel as though I have more control about my life than, say, my mother. I'm realizing more and more each day how much I've been kept from, and learning more and more about the ways in which I was brought up. There are some common sense rules within my house that just make sense. But there is a degree of control that my parents just refuse to relinquish.
But that doesn't mean that college is completely liberating in all ways. I miss having my car. I chose where to go and when. I'm becoming more and more aware that I choose what I want to do and where I go based around buses. I actually find myself missing out on some aspects of college life just because I am so removed from everything that's going on ON CAMPUS. I need to justify the 10 to 15 minute bus ride to do anything on campus, and find myself choosing to find some alternative in my dorm.
That's not to say that's a bad thing! I have some amazing people living in my dorm. Like I said, we don't really have the NEED to go out on a Friday night in order to have fun. We stay in and create our own. I wonder if I'm limiting myself as far as making friends goes though. If I were to branch out earlier in the year, would I know more people on Main Campus. Would I have more reasons to make the trek by bus more often? Would I get more involved in campuse activities? I don't know, but for now, I'm going to say that staying on South on the weekends is the best choice for me.
Going back for Thanksgiving made me realize just how incredible WiFi is. I take for granted that I'm sitting on the bottom floor of Bird Library with not a single cord coming out of my computer as I type this on-line. This winter is not going to be fun. If I want to go on the Internet, I have to go on my old school desktop and I can't travel around my house freely. Another downside is the fact that my Mac will have no Internet for some time. I mean I COULD hook it up to the Internet. But that means disconnecting that old school desktop and then connecting the Mac, waiting for it to recognize and then connect. I have no mobility with it. I am completely strapped down by cords. And once I'm done, I have to disconnect the Mac, reconnect the desktop and figure out how to reset the connection so that my parents don't bitch at me for daring to use my computer to do anything (like iChat with my friends whom I'm so used to being right down the hall from me).
But once I go into my room. I will be all alone. ALL ALONE. There will be no roommate who's working on some art project that, frankly, doesn't really interest me. I can play my music without feeling bad that she's sitting there doing stuff. My room won't smell like food. ALL lights will go out when I go to sleep. I won't have to answer rhetorical questions like se seriously needed me to justify things. I will be ALONE. NO ONE. MY room will be MY room.
I won't have to talk when I don't want to. I can dance around when I do want to--in my underwear. I can just change my clothes or get ready for a shower without the warning "Don't turn around." It will be peaceful.
Break will be nice for once too. During every other winter break I've had, I've had to deal with homework, papers, and projects to get done. This year there will be none of that. I will be completely done with my first semester of college, for that glorious month, I won't have work to deal with. When I return I will have a completely new schedule. So for once, I feel like I'll really be able to rest without worrying if I'm forgetting to complete some project. I won't actually be procrastinating because there will be nothing to procrastinate!
Speaking of which, that's why I'm writing this. I really should be finishing my CAS essay so I can edit it later (rather, re write the first part and tighten up the second part) and writing my QSX paper. Then I need to study for my Spanish oral interview which is tomorrow. And then somehow, I need to make sure that I get plenty of rest for the presentation tomorrow.
So now that I've shared some of my thoughts on college and going home, I'm going to get back to work.