Bored Excitement

So break is shaping up kind of the way I expected. I'm having a great time, but still wondering about Syracuse.
I love being able to see all my Hackettstown friends, going to the places that we used to go to last year--Applebees, Friendly's (not for food, more to just see who was working and hang out), and the Budd Lake Diner. Sadly, I do realize that all these places are FOOD related. I wish there were things to do in this town besides eat out. If we had a good dance club, good thrift stores, a bowling alley, or a non-sketchy arcade, then maybe this place wouldn't feel like such an obesity trap.
But I've found some things to occupy me. I'm constantly trying to clean out my room. Little by little I'm throwing out a LOT of stuff from my room. Papers from high school that I was once convinced that I may need again one day have found their way into the garbage. Clothes that I know I won't wear ever again are sitting in either one of two trash bags--trash or donation. I still need to go through my closet but then I feel like I'll really have moved on from the ghost of the old, high school me, creating more room for the me that I've been developing and loving for the past few months.
I've seen some friends that I haven't seen in a long time. Carbi and I have cruised around Hackettstown, going from Friendly's to her house, to QuickChek wondering what the hell there is to do in this place, waiting hopelessly for our boyfriends to get out of work so that we can goto the diner, watch a movie, or go bowling in a few towns over.
But I miss Syracuse. I miss wandering aimlessly into Ric's ever-open door to crash on his (now roommate occupied) free bed, and watch him play the video game of the moment. I miss knocking on Kelina's door casually suggesting we hop on the bus to actually get decent food with Lara on Main. And, yes, I'll admit that I even miss hearing Brian's loud-as-can-be rants, whether it be about the hopelessness of liberalism, or just about the newest video game that he hasn't beaten just yet. Even more astoundingly, I miss Maxx mumbling stories while I wonder if the kid will ever speak loud enough so I can hear him the first time so that I don't have to obnoxiously say, "What?!? I can't hear you! SPEAK UP please! I'm slightly deaf!" I miss making plans with Kasey to meet on Main Campus to talk about Syracuse and Hackettstown. Weird, right?
I guess that's the weirdest part. I mean having Kasey with me at Syracuse is like having a taste of home with me on campus. She's one of my best friends from high school and I can talk to her about stuff that's going on both at home and at school without constantly reminding her who Carbi, Katie, Hali, Ric, Lara, or Kelina is. She just knows. In many ways, I feel more comfortable having her in Syracuse and in Hackettstown. I'm glad I started out my break with her going to Rutgers.
It gave me a kind of bridge to break. I mean I didn't have to get SUBMERGED into Hackettstown life. We talked about life in both towns. And I was truly happy and ready to see Hali having that buffer zone. Don't get me wrong--I would have been ecstatic to see Hali with or without that buffer zone, but I feel like I would have been awkward around her or anyone else from Hackettstown. I guess I just have trouble adjusting.

So, I thought I'd just interject her and tell you that I'm truly sorry that this post makes absolutely no sense. It really is just random thoughts being typed out as I think them. I've found that my mind doesn't go on very logical tangents, and so my writing, unless focused, goes into weird non-logical tangents.
Anyway, this next week looks like it's going to shape up really well. I'm going to see some great people tonight. Tomorrow's is Emily's birthday and we're going out tonight to celebrate--which reminds me, I have to go shopping. I'm glad she's decided on the night before for her dinner celebration because tomorrow is also Gabe's and my anniversary and we're going out. I always feel as though I always have something with him coinciding with events with them and I feel bad that I don't get to hang out with them that often. Anyway tomorrow's the anniversary and we're trying to figure out what we want to do. We know we're going out to dinner. We want to go to Legal Seafood at the Short Hills Mall, but then he suggested Carmine's. We're not going to Carmine's. I looked at their menu last night (http://www.carminesnyc.com/carmines_44st.htm) and uh, no. We don't have that kind of money. Legal's is expensive...but they don't charge $11 for garlic bread. They don't even charge that for the appetizer of fried calamari!
Theeeennnn, the next day, I go to Philly with Gabe. We're going to his friend's house who's having a New Year's party! It took a little bit of convincing to get my parents to be okay with it but I'm going, and it's going to be a great night!!!

Anyway, I know I was kinda descriptive towards the top and very non-descriptive towards the end, but I'm tired now, and will end this entry here. There will probably be more later.

oh..if I didn't mention this before--I have wireless internet now! which is the only reason I can write this right now!!! Thanks Gabriel!!!!!!